Run away brain

I don't know if everyone is like this or not, but I am bad about reading to much in to something. One little thing can happen after time I will be thinking that this person hates me or is on the way to loving me.

Either way it goes it sucks. If only I could see things as they really are I think life would be a lot easier, but with my current state I am all over the place thinking people feel one way about me and the complete opposite the next.

I leave you now with a song:

Held - Natalie Grant

Two months is too little.
They let him go.
They had no sudden healing.
To think that providence would
Take a child from his mother while she prays
Is appalling.

Who told us we’d be rescued?
What has changed and why should we be saved from nightmares?
We’re asking why this happens
To us who have died to live?
It’s unfair.

Chorus:
This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we’d be held.

This hand is bitterness.
We want to taste it, let the hatred NUMB our sorrow.
The wise hands opens slowly to lilies of the valley and tomorrow.

(Chorus)
This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we’d be held.

Bridge:
If hope is born of suffering.
If this is only the beginning.
Can we not wait for one hour watching for our Savior?

(Chorus)
This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we’d be held.

Sammy meet my readers

Readers meet Sammy:


When we went and picked out the table we won $25 in free stuff. Sammy was $24.95. Be nice or Sammy will chop your head off.

Roth

Well I finally sent in the paper work to start my Roth IRA. I don't know how long I will be able to put money in it, but something is better than nothing right? I am trying to make sure I don't have to eat dog food when I am old. It is sad that some people have to do that, and others who are perfectly capable of work, but to lazy to do anything.

Ok sorry for that little rant. Way to political for my blog.

Um...I been going to the gym thing we have here. It is another one of those things that I don't know will last or not. I hope it does. The first time around I had my hair, but now I am fat and bald. I don't think that will be good for finding someone to love me so I am trying to at least drop the fat part.

Not that I am really ready for anyone else. Boy do I feel sorry for that person when they do come along. No telling how many issues I am going to have with relationships after this, and I had a fear of abandonment before.

Way

Way FM is having a fund raiser thing. If you can give please do.

Sigh

I know you all are getting tied about hearing about me being upset. In fact I have been doing a little writing the old fashiond way just to save you all from having to read all the crap that is going on in my head.

Lately I have been wanting to call Leslie and yell at her that I hope she is happy because she has screwed up my life. I know that is not really fair. I will never do it either. I just get really frustrated and sad sometimes.

How to Become an Early Riser

I thought is was a pretty intresting article: How to Become an Early Riser

Good year for movies

I can't believe it. There are TWO movies that I will go to the theater to see this year. X-Men 3 and Superman Returns. That has to be some kind of record. I can't remember when the last time I was looking forward to seeing more than one movie at the theater in one year.

Out of it

I am not doing to good with the getting up so very early. I would if I could get to sleep earlier, but I have not been able to do so. I go to bed early, but can't sleep. So today I was pretty much out of it. I did not get a whole lot done. I am hoping tomorrow will be better.

I am hoping next week will be much better. We are only going to do 9 hour days instead of 10. It should be better, but we will see.

Yeah sorry I am not in a good mood. The lack of sleep is affect my ability to be happy or seem happy or whatever it is I do these days.

Two Things

1) Meeting at 4 today at work. We were informed that we will be going in two hours early (6 am) this week and next. It would not surprise me at all if we have to say late as well. They better not screw me out of hanging out with Andy and Dusty next weekend.

2) Got the final divorce papers today.

Great day.

Long week

This has been a rough week. Glad it is over with.

Switchfoot goodness

I replaced another part of my missing CD collection this weekend. I went to Best Buy looking to get Switchfoot's latest two CD, which I did, but I also found this 3 CD thing for $16 that had their first three CD's so I got that too!

I like me some Switchfoot, they are up there with Thousand Food Krutch.

King Kong was ok, kind of sad. I don't think it will be anything I will be buying. Not that it was bad just don't think I will ever feel the need to see it again, which if you did not know is the number 2 reason to buy a movie. The first being that it was good.

I got my hair cut this weekend! I was starting to get shaggy again. It is funny for hair that wants to fall out, what I do have grows fast. Just it is trying to get all its growing in before it takes the dive.

King Kong

There will be a viewing of the new King Kong this weekend at my place. Admission is free. We have three chairs open currently with plenty of floor seats. Day and time are still up in the air so if you want to join us just let me know a time and everyone can show up then.

Oh I also have popcorn! If you want other snacks please bring them we are allowing outside food and drink for this showing. Please sign up fast seating is limited.

Dreams of Gas

I dreamed last night that I went to a gas station in Athens. The price was $2.00 a gallon, but they only had one pump and had to pay in cash. I waited what seemed like an hour before my turn. All I had on me was a $50 and only need like $25 worth of gas.

I gave the my money, pumped the gas, and moved the truck so the next person in line could get to the pump. I went back in the store to get my change. They told me that the guy who took my money was gone and I could not get my change until he was working again. I was mad and fought with those people until I woke up.

Times like this

It is so hard at times like this, night at the apartment alone, almost bed time with a little extra time, to not fall back down flat on my face. It is a struggle to keep my thoughts under control. Maybe it is getting easier? I guess it is. I am trying to stay positive.

I just tried calling Leslie. I don't know why I do that. She did not answer, but don't guess she has to anymore. I should not even call, but I want to. I want to make sure she is doing ok. I really do want her to be happy. I don't think that is a bad thing, it is all I ever wanted to do for her, and maybe this way she can have it.

On something more up beat the A/C in the truck is working again for now. Got it hooked up this past weekend. I am sure it still has a leak, but if it will last the summer that would be great. If it does last until next year I may just keep filling it up every summer for a few years until I can save up some moneys for a new (or at least new to me) car.

I am still loving the new phone. Other than that one time I screw it up I have had no problems out of it. The sound is 200% better than what I had on my old phone, not to mention it is not purple! Nothing against purple, but it is not the color I want my phone to be.

Predators

We just got home for the Predators game. The boss had some tickets he could not use so he gave 2 to me and 2 to another coworker. We all went and had a blast. I felt bad cause Melissa skipped school. I almost did not ask her for that reason.

They lost, but that is ok we still had a great time. Nothing like a good time with some friends. The downside is that it is now almost 2 hours past my bed time which means tired me tomorrow. Good times!